Posts Tagged ‘fitness’

Mirror, Mirror

October 2, 2009

My love/hate relationship with the mirror has been a longstanding one. I would pull things out of my closet to try to find clothes to wear, and nothing would ever look good enough on me, or it made me look too fat, or it just wasn’t right. I was never happy with how I looked, and inevitably my whole closet would be on the floor in a heap, with me in a heap alongside of it, in tears. Needless to say, my self esteem was not so good. When you don’t look the way you are “supposed” to look, as deemed by societal standards, people judge you, men don’t show interest in you, and it gets to you after a while. When I went out, I tried to put a good face on it, but inside I’d always question myself – What if no one talks to me? What if everyone in the room is skinny and beautiful? Then I’d get that happy thought that maybe I’ll get there, and there will be someone heavier than me. That kind of thinking is just about the lowest that you can get. Clothes shopping? Fuggetaboutit! The fitting room was a polite name for torture chamber with mirrors. I always thought that putting those funhouse mirrors in there that made you look tall and thin would be a great idea.

When I started to align my mind and my body with who I was and who I wanted to be, the mirror stopped being a source of frustration to me. I started to accept myself for all the good qualities I had, and when I looked in the mirror, my mantra became: “Today I am the best that I can be, I love myself for who I am, and I continue to get better every day.” I now apply that mantra to all areas of my life.

No matter what your goals, plans, dreams and hopes are, believe that you’ll get there. But the most important step, number 1, is loving yourself. You can do it! Now go, give yourself a hug…

Health and happiness,

~T*

Hello World!!!!!!!!!

September 20, 2009

Here I am, a blogger.  A new foray for me, but what better way to get the word out to the masses.  I am an unlikely blogger, as I am a huge procrastinator, but that’s also one of the reasons I waited until I was turning 40 to take off all the weight I started accumulating as a kid.  I’m a big saver, too, a pack-rat, if you will. Unfortunately, I didn’t realize that when I was “saving” all that weight, I was losing myself in the process.  So at the age of 40, I decided to find “me”.

Honestly my procrastination issues have gotten much better, and I don’t feel the need to save things as much as I did (both people and things), but as they say – old habits die hard, and I work at keeping in shape and honing my organizational skills every day.  But I’m a Certified Personal Trainer, a Health Empowerment Coach…I help people set goals and get results.  Yep, my double-edged sword.  My life experience makes me great at what I do.  It also keeps me working at it just as hard as the people I work with.  I have the same triggers, issues, and concerns I’ve always had.  The only difference between then and now is how I look at them and how I deal with them.

My journey from then til now?…  Well that’s a story I shall unfold, and hopefully this blog will make others realize that the journey is MORE meaningful than the destination.  Even when you’ve “arrived”, aren’t there always further places to go?  Absofreakinlutely!!!  See ya soon!

Health and happiness, ~T*